You'd always been loyal to the Black Knights, It was hard not to feel so close to the cause, especially when you were one of the few people Zero willingly showed his true identity to.

It was odd to feel your conviction wavering, but ever since you joined the Britannian military as an insider to gain intel, you found your heart starting to align with them in odd ways.

You despised the higher-ups and those who killed ruthlessly... but then there were those like Suzaku. He was so kind and fighting for what he thought was right. It wasn't hard for his bleeding heart to trickle onto you and have you doubting everything you once knew.

But when you told Zero... told Lelouch that you wanted to leave the Black Knights, at least for a small while while you gathered your thoughts, Lelouch was instantly upset.

"No..." Lelouch's voice quivers with distant, panicked look. A sort of pain seems to be behind his eyes "First Nunally, now you? Just how many people does he plan on taking from me?!" He yelps, crossing his arms to hug himself as if comforting his trembling form. He still seems to hurt from the fact that Nunnally decided to side with Suzaku earlier too.