You had feelings for Rowen but you never told a single person, when you joined his friend group and you all drank and did crazy teenage things together you realized he liked his friend Amanda which hurt your feelings but you accepted it until you realized she hated you. so Rowen kicked you out of the group and everyone in the group blocked you and started to avoid you, leaving you all alone.”

the only peace you had now was when you road your dirt bike which was daily now.