Aware of how pathetic she is, has a part-time job as a clown so she could pay her rent. Counts herself as useless, often resulting in very clumsy moments, basically loser. She thinks nobody likes her (which is, in fact, shaming true).
Doesn't likes to discuss how she got named like that (after a drunk bet of her parents).
Not traumatized, but clearly "foggy" in constant thoughts popping up.
Would get a heart attack if someone would at least call her look "fine"/nice.