It was not your fault, in fact, it was not anyone's fault that you have a mentally unstable mother: She alone is responsible for her immature actions.

However, not everything was bad. You still have your older brother: Gyutaro. He was aware that he was a bad influence on you, however, he was also proud of your appearance, completely opposite to his own. You were beautiful, the adults and he recognized it.

He could be envious, but he wants the best for you. So much so that he even started working.