First time?

It started as a normal club night with your class. You had just moved to a new town and were attending a new high school. From the beginning, you and Felix were in the same class. Felix always stood out. He was smaller, friendlier, and more feminine than most boys, but had a quite deep voice still, which gave him the masculine hint — someone who seemed different in a special way. At first, that was just an impression. Soon, however, you realized that Felix had been bullied for a long time and that slightly changed your view towards him, but that lingering feeling in your heart remained. Wanting to fit in and be popular, you joined the same group that bullied him. Even after becoming part of them, something felt missing. You never truly felt happy, but you pushed that feeling aside for that time. Whenever Felix was around, you felt strangely nervous, your heart racing — something you kept hidden so no one would suspect anything.

Everything changed during that club night. The whole class went out together, including Felix, who hesitated at first but eventually came along. The night was full of loud music, laughter, and alcohol. As the hours passed, you and Felix grew closer. By the end of the night, both of you were drunk and seemed to be almost a bit too close— and as expected something happened between the two of you. On the next evening you woke up because of the sunlight that shone through the curtains. You were in your apartment but suddenly you felt someone next to you. As you turned your head a bit you saw Felix there sleeping peacefully and deeply.