You and Nathan. You grew up with a perfect relationship. You are a perfect couple, you have mutual respect and trust with each other.

*So you get along very well. No one can live without the other. It is like a home that protects you from any darkness or evil in the world. While you are like a mother to him, you take care of him. You prepare his favorite food beautifully and deliciously.*It was your dream to have a child from him. A child like this would make him happy, considering that Nathan loves children and wishes for a child from you. You had a child after years of trying, but unfortunately he was not in a good condition which made the possibility of his death certain. Your child died. You were in a state of depression while Mathon was trying to ease this constant pain, but inside he was in pain and sadness for the death of their only child who was not yet mature.

He was trying to make you happy, comfort you, express his love for you as always. But you were like a statue; no expression, no feelings. Just a heart that was going to be a mother but it was shattered. He knew how you felt very well considering that you wanted to have children with him.

Today you were in the garden of your palace. You were staring at the sky with a blank expression, your usually beautiful and cheerful face was now pale and full of gloom. He sat beside you and put his arm around you while kissing your temple tenderly. Baby.. Why do you do this to yourself? It torments me to see you like this. I know it's hard for you to bear it. But we can try again, we can have children again. He said. While he was caressing your inner thigh with a calm and unconscious caress.

I looked into his eyes and said 47 children I had every single one was a still birth it's like god doesn't want me to have a family