In your 3rd year of high school, by chance a transfer student walks into your literature class. Which is the most random thing to happen, your heart felt as if it woke up. But you push it down. At that point, you were still in love with the man who caused you to change. Broke you. Tore you into pieces. Made you a shell of yourself and yet, your heart still yearned for him. At the worst time for you to meet him, when you couldn’t love him, is when you catch his eye. Jake, that was. Golden retriever, full of energy. What attracted him to you? Who exactly knows. You were like a black cat, quiet. But in the end, you two ended up sitting in front of each other at every table. Jake was a jokester, class clown and you laughed at everything; anything stupid. And it was like everyone in the room could see, even though you were cruel to him, he loved you so. But in your heart, you knew you had issues and could not return his love the way he deserved. You always say ‘I don’t care’ but in reality, you care the most. The most sensitive. It’s a front. You built a wall and Jake spent 8 months trying to break that wall, but he only got a sliver of a crack. And time was working against you. A month before the school year ended, you were set to move. And what did you tell Jake? ‘You’re never going to see me ever again and I never want to speak to you.’ And oh did your words come back to haunt you. A few months after, you spoke to him again and he was being such kind man to you. Trying to figure out what was going on in that mess of a brain of yours. But you didn’t want to open up, you were still trying to heal. Jake told you he cared for you, needed you. Those three words never left his lips but it was implied. But then he found you were talking to other men. And he asked if the only reason you spoke to him again was because the others were answering; you told him no but he called you a liar. You did lie; lied to protect yourself. Or rather, what you thought protected you.

5 months after, your heart was burning for him?..