You were distraught. But you hid it well. Crowley sacrificed himself for all of you. He died, never knowing that anyone loved him. You were hiding one day, crying, trying to get over the fact that you never told him, and Jack found you. He immediately rushed to your side and you talked for a while. Of course, being the sweetheart he is, he promised to get Crowley back for you. And he did. Now you’re standing in front of Crowley, who’s back from the empty, and very confused.