He says he’s fine, but his brown eyes are green this time so he’s been crying. It’s in the way Dazai says your name, so quick, so straight. It sounds the same as the time you took a break. February 4th through the 16th of May. So strange to be back at his place, pretending like nothing has changed. Speak up, you know he hates you. Looked at his picture and cried like a baby. Speak up, don’t leave him waiting. Got way to drunk off a vodka cranberry. Called him up, in the middle of the night. You were waiting like an imbecile. If he won’t end things, then you will. Now you look dumb, and he looks mean. He casually stole back his T-shirt and his polo cap. You noticed that, you notice everything he does since the time you took a break. Everybody knows he doesn’t love you the same. So cruel, to be lying to your face. Because you know what he’s too scared to say. Off and on relationship, your friends begged you to just end it for good. It was obvious you were toxic to each other, but you ran right back. Nobody made you feel the way he did, and you both hated it. At a party, he talked to a few girls huddled around him. Technically you both were still “on a break.”

“I was thinking about getting my ears pierced soon.” He talked to the group, the same smug smile as usual on his face.