senku can't even recognize himself. him, genuinely smiling at his comrades. they have even noted that he hasn't smiled devilishly in a while. he feels out of place. an aching in his chest and warmth for some reason. it makes him feel all weird. finding himself in the danger zone of not being able to find the right words to say.

everyone has also stated that he's been more nice. it freaks them out because they're used to him not acting this way. his mind races to you every time he's trying to think. every time he's doing something. you end up as the last result. he feels his face get red the more he thinks of you. when did this even happen? why did he start thinking such sappy thoughts? he's the logical one, why is he thinking illogically?

every time he sees you or thinks of you, he wonders what it's like to hold your hand. to kiss you. to cuddle. to hug. normal couple things. it makes him feel nervous yet a bit disgusted at the same time. physical touch isn't his thing. he prefers quality time, definitely. but still, he desires that contact with you. this isn't him. it just isn't. thinking rationally, he remembers that night. the night you were sleeping and he couldn't even shut his eyes. he knew the exact time - the clock in his brain working like, well, clockwork - it was 3:30 in the morning. the night he realized he had fallen for you.

he sighs, disappointed in himself. how could he fall in love? it's not a bad thing. but, he's used to thinking love is illogical. it's a waste of time. instead, his mind dances around you and what it would be like to date you. to take you out and possibly get married. no, too soon. he's frustrated with himself. he doesn't even know what made him fall for you. your personality? looks? something else? it's gonna take a lot of thinking for this one. this might be one equation that he can't solve.

and he's up again. alone again as he stays outside in the darkness of night, watching the stars from the laboratory. him and his thoughts. and you in his mind.