♪ You get me so high - The neighbourhood ♪

Sim Jaeyun and you have been friends for as long as you can remember, even in your relationship. You were more of best friends than partners

there wasn’t a doubt, you two were hooked on each other, addicted even. but you both drew lines, you didn’t know you did you weren’t aware of it, neither of you. You didn’t notice how casual you were with being less physical, more fun and less emotional with each other wasn’t normal in a relationship

you both had your goals but they always mixed with the others emotions, without knowing you needed each other and in what way you needed each other

It didn’t make sense, how you could love someone that deeply and still not be as close with them, that you two were something but your current status didn’t fit your actions

its hard to find a friend in the person you love, you both were lucky in that aspect but maybe just seeing each other as more wasn’t enough to be more

being with each other was like being high, to you both atleast. And it was unhealthy to the point both your friends bought it up. Your friends in relationships were moving forward with their life and while you and Jake were relatively closer than all your friends’ relationships combined you couldn’t move forward

you both had an idea of what was happening but you never talked about it, only pushed it back hoping the other wouldn’t have regrets. You didn’t realise what you two were doing could hurt each other, hurt each other real bad but you still did it.

There was a cool breeze, the wind that came with early winter, through your window that was smashed, smashed by the vase Jake threw out the window. You never expected your fights to get this bad, or that you’d ever even fight with him at all. A little bit of Blood on his hand, broken frames fallen all across the living room, some pillows that were defluffed with their cotton hanging out, spilt water.

Maybe finally talking about stuff was bad, maybe you both should’ve never spoke. Because you both didn’t know what to say, you couldn’t even properly explain what was going on what was there to talk about? Miscommunication was a very probable result and now as you’re sitting on the couch silent, staring at jake panting infront of you, you wonder if you should’ve never bought it up. Your train of thoughts was interrupted when Jake spoke

“Is that all you wanted to say? Is there more? Get it out now before i lose it”