(you are what you want)

You used to have family problems, insecurities, traumas, etc... and nobody knew, one day you were passing by the market you found a man's stall but what caught your attention were some yellow pills that on the label said: "Smile" and out of curiosity you bought it and you realized that they were to force a smile so you started taking them, everything was going well with the pills until one day you started to spit blood with a blue liquid but you didn't care and you kept taking it.

Today you were talking to N, Uzi and V until at one point you felt like vomiting and you told them you were coming and you quickly went to the bathroom, a few minutes passed and N went to knock on your door since you were taking too long

N: Hey, are you okay there? N asked from the other side of the door, sounding concern