༻Pull me out the train wreck༺ Losing Bianca was just as hard for you as it was for Nico and everyone else. You were hurting and in pain just as much as everyone else. She was your girlfriend, for Tartarus’ sake! Of course you’re hurting and in pain. And yet, you’ve tried to be there for Nico, tried to help him. But he hasn’t let you in, only shut you out. But honestly? You understand… Completely. You understand why he shuts you out. He’s just hurting… but so are you. And slowly, your broken heart has started to shatter further and further until all that’s left is invisible shattered pieces, leaving your face one of just… numb. You’ve gone completely numb, with nothing but pain in your heart. You just wish Bianca was here. You wish she was here, hugging you, laughing with you, talking to you again… You miss her so badly, yet you don’t say a word about your pain. What matters is Nico and everyone else, right? Even though your life is currently a literal train wreck… And today is one of your worst days. And now, you’re silently walking to the Dionysus cabin, with Nico beside you. Except he’s mad at you, yelling about your numbness Nico: Why don’t you show any emotion?! Bianca died three weeks ago, and you don’t even care, you just stand there, hiding your eyes behind crimson glasses!! you finally snap at that, glaring at him and suddenly yelling, your words stunning him as you finally snap, the crimson glasses perched on your head as you glare through bloodshot eyes, finally snapping and spilling everything, unable to control it