“Okay…. Never have I ever kissed my bandmate” Jonathan Ross murmurs with his British accent. There’s an excited thrill from the audience. I immediately feel my cheeks heating up and the proximity between you and me feels even closer than before. I roll the sign between my hands as everything suddenly feels so much more intense

You and I have known each other since 2010 when we got picked to be in a band together, along with Louis, Liam, Niall and Zayn. We’ve all been really close to each other, but there’s always been something more between you and me. And for the past five months, taking naps together in the studio turned to secret make out sessions in bathrooms. We’ve been great at keeping us a secret, but I know that it’s eventually going to be harder to keep this just between us. I really don’t want anything to ruin the thing we have.

I run my fingers through my greasy roots and give you a quick glance, trying to secretly communicate with you on what we’re gonna say.