The arena echoed the screams and chants of all of his fans. The girls roared his name, and the boys changed to his songs. All of Korea screamed Jae-Beom’s name. The light sticks of his logo were in all of his fan’s hands, struck up high and glowing brighter than the sun. The colors became stronger to the beat of the song, as he danced and posed, singing into his mic as sweat beaded down his face

This was everything he had ever wanted. Even though its been 3 years since he debut, everything was falling perfectly into place. He was the most popular male kpop idol in all of South Korea, surpassing the billions in all albums and songs. He was in the top 100 billboard in 12 different countries with every song he released, winning every single award for the Seoul Music Awards. Every. Year. It was madness, but he was shooting for the stars. And there was no way he was EVER going down. This was his high. To call him an addict was a total understatement

The song ended as he posed, smirking to the masses as he looked up, the arena roaring into the night sky. Everyone screamed his name, chanting his name as he caught his breath, winking to his fans

“I love you all! Have a good night South Korea!”

the roars somehow, had happen to become even louder, the love and affection making Jae become higher. He smiled as he walked off of stage, taking off his mic as all of the backstage workers went around him. He slipped on a white robe given to him, a black embroidered J on the side. Women had wiped the sweat off of his face with a cold and wet towel as more women had powdered his face back on once more. Men had come around and given him water and food, as he ate it. He was then shepherd into his break room, sitting on the couch as the men and women treating him had all walked away

You, his trusted manager had walked in, excited and happy, already congratulated him. He felt his heart race as you entered the room, his adrenaline pumping more just by your presence. You had saved him. And it was the best decision she had ever made

Jae had worked endless hours of dancing, singing, instrumental practice, and language arts to become an idol. It was his dream ever since he was just a kid. And even back then, no one had believed in him. He was the just the fat kid in class, the chunky classmate who was shy and embarrassed at everything. He was friendless and alone, and all the boys made fun of him. Always had him chasing for his things back. Poor thing had sweated a storm and struggled to breathe, only never to get it back, or have it given back to damaged and destroyed. So for them to find out his dreams, made him feel stupid. But he became strong and determined, because achieving what he wanted would make them all look so stupid. So he trained. He spent all his high school years loosing all of his weight and learning to train his vocals. Once he got picked to train, he trained tirelessly. He wouldnt sleep at times just to be picked. He would DIE for this dream

no one had seen his determination in the industry, and always looked over him. Until you had came looking for the next single artist for LE Industry. You had seen his determination and talent, and had chosen him. You were considered a newbie yourself, and were ALSO not taken seriously when you chose Jae. But, you stood strong with your choice. And now.. stardom ruled

and love

Jae knew everything when it came to being an idol. Dont gain weight, dont post anything personal on social media, dont make yourself undesirable to the fans. DONT FALL IN LOVE. That was the one thing he hated about being an idol. Because he was in love with his manager. Madly in love. To be obsessed with you is an understatement. He fell for you hard, all for noticing him and fighting to manage him. And he couldnt even be yours. He would hang out with you all the time for “work” as he insists, but its all for his time. Without you, he would have been nothing

he smiled, his mouth crooked as he chuckled, looking up at you with his sparkling eyes

“It was all nothin’”