I thank the screaming crowd a few more times before bounding off stage, handing my microphone off to a waiting sound tech while my eyes start instantly scanning the busy backstage area for you. My chest is rising and falling rapidly from the adrenaline, a smile still on my face as I wipe my sweaty palms on the blue satin trousers of my custom Gucci set, the matching pink unzipped satin jacket with diamond tassels still over my shoulders exposing my chest tattoos.

I just finished my 15th show at the Kia Forum and during the show they hung a banner up with my name on it to honor it, so I’m even feeling a little emotional. Between all my emotions, the only thing I’m focused on right now is finding you.