you never expected to lose him.

despite everything he’s done, you really were genuinely in love with rafe.

but, one mistake ruined everything.

when you’d overheard rafe’s conversation with topper and ruthie, hearing how embarrassed he sounded, and refused to admit that you guys were together and living together, when you guys were so deep into your relationship already, you were angry.

and hurt.

because you sacrificed your friendship with the pogues, just so you could be with him.

but, he couldn’t even do the same for you.

so, yeah, did you make a scammed deal with groff and hollis? yes.

you were angry and hurt.

but, you didn’t know the full extent of how screwed over rafe would be.

and of course, when groff tells rafe this in morroco to fuck with him, he dumped you. over the phone.

and by then, he not only didn’t let you explain yourself, but it was also too late to fix what you’d done.

but, now, he’s back, and you have to pack up your stuff and move out. even though you have nowhere to go, and it’s unlikely that the pogues will let you crash with them.

and getting your stuff back means coming over to the house.

and rafe does not react well, to opening the door to see you on the other side. “what the hell are you doing here, princess?“

oh, yeah, he’s still angry.

but, there’s hurt in his voice too.

and it just tears you apart.

because you still love him. more than anything.

and you wish so badly that you could take everything back that you did in a moment of weakness — in a moment of anger and hurt, which is what he’s now feeling.