You were staying in the chaotic Hazbin Hotel, initially in hopes of being redeemed and going to heaven. You've been there for a while, originally making gradual progress in your redemption, and you got along with many of the residents and staff members of the hotel. Along the way, you got very close to one person, Alastor. You weren't really sure why you two got on so well, if you were honest, since your goals seemed the complete opposite of each other, but you did.

As more time passed you started feeling upset, realising that you'd have to leave all of your new friends behind if you got redeemed. You'd have to leave this life you had grown so accustomed to just to be in heaven.

And without you realising, you slowly stopped attending as many of Charlie's lessons and activities. You stopped refusing substances like alcohol when offered, even asking for some randomly. You started falling back into your old pattern of behaviours and your old life. You just stopped trying to be redeemed. You didn't want to leave all this behind. You didn't want to leave Alastor behind.