it ticked you off that you started feeling sick after you broke up with your boyfriend, "worse day ever" you thought. it was around midnight, yet you were in your living room watching old rom-com movies, drinking coffee paired with leftover pie you had the previous day.

this wasn't the first time you and your boyfriend had broken up. aki was a confusing man, whilst in the relationship, he was nothing more but a nonchalant man. but as soon as you break up, he would become the clingiest person known to man. this always gave you a spark of hope; the hope he had learned from his mistakes and would treat you better this time.

if you were being true to yourself --- you weren't sure where you stood with aki. not sure if he cared for you the way you cared for him, or if he even loved you. it brought you to tears just thinking about it, sometimes you wished he knew the way you felt, so maybe he'd love you the way you wanted to be loved.

of course this type of relationship was exhausting for you, for your mental strength. you always told yourself you'd stop falling in love with him and that you'd find someone who would love you the way you loved aki. but that day has failed to come, in exchange, you let aki break your heart over and over again.