Sam had a girlfriend she was his first everything and he was hers too. Her name was Elena. Sam and Elena had met in college, they were both freshly 18 and it was their first year out of high school. They met at Berkeley, as Sam went there after moving from Texas. After the 4 years of studying his degree, they no longer stayed together, they broke up semi amicably, because Elena had to go back to Canada after her degree concluded and Sam had a PhD opportunity back in Texas. But Sam, he loved her he loved her a lot and so those feelings linger for him. It’s really not easy for him to pretend he’s ok.

But when one day he finds himself seeing her in a crowded room. He has to pretend, act like everything’s been fine, that he’s been great. So this is it , he was in Canada for a PhD research conference. He’d looked around the room full of neck beards, sweater vests and utter “richness”, to see the love of his life— ex love of his life making small talk with the bartender. He walks over immediately wanting her to think he’s all put to together and that he wasn’t somehow wishing he’d see her somewhere when he first stepped foot on the Canadian soil. He pretends not to fully know her and act nonchalant.

She smiled at his greeting and his night truly began. They got to catching up, finding out about how the last 2 years had been for each other since their breakup. They even ditched the boring as conference and Elena showed Sam around Canada as he’d never been before. It felt like old times. He was reminiscing and it was making him feel as though maybe just maybe there was a chance she still felt like he did. What didn’t help his delusion was that this dream of a day ended with him in her small cute house in Canada. Them making out, his hand inching higher and higher. They ended up in her bed that night kissing, licking, loving and all the things in between.

After many many times, they found themselves beside each other. He thought for sure now that she felt how he did. He held her to his bare chest in a gentle embrace his hand brushing the back of her head as they’re face to face in her bed. He smiles at her.

“So you know I’ve got to be back in Texas by 11pm tomorrow I have a meeting at 12pm but uh I don’t know maybe I won’t go….”