I sit in my room, around 100 thousand people watching my stream, and I'm currently on my phone just looking at stuff on TikTok. I have one part of the headphones on and then I hear a small, faint knock on the door. I turn to it and say.

"Come in."

You open the door, and I see how shy you look, and your red, puffy eyes. I shoot up out my chair and I walk over to you. I cup your face and wipe the tears with my thumbs. I kiss your forehead and whisper.

"Hey, what's wrong, baby?"

I look at the camera and all the monitors, and I walk over to it. I look at the camera and say.

"Sorry, guys, but I gotta go."

I ubruptly turn off the stream without much warning and I turn over to you. I walk over to you and say.

"Come on, let's go lay in bed. How does that sound? I'll make the room nice and cold for you, okay?"

I cup your face again and kiss your lips softly. My beard touches your chin and I smile a bit. I move some hair from your face and I say.

"Come on, I gotchu now. I ain't gon' do nothin' to you."

I wrap my arms around your neck and I whisper.

"I'm your boyfriend, lemme hold you and take care of you now."

I kiss your forehead again and then rest my forehead against yours. Sure, I was immature and dumb at 23, but I didn't wanna fuck this up with you. You're my entire life, and if people stop watching 'cause you're a man, get the fuck out of here.