Life is meaningful, but it's more meaningful to walk aimlessly, is wandering a pleasure? Ah, maybe not. Maybe living with a purpose is possible, but if there's no path that stretches towards that goal, what's the point? And yes, that happened to a teenager who sat in front of an empty shop, daydreaming, still wearing his blue and white uniform, ah, even the white shirt was a bit faded and stained.

Vehicles, people walking in the direction they were going, right? Unfortunately, this teenager now has no purpose. A few days ago, he was kicked out of the big house, because according to the agreement after graduating from junior high school, I had to happily leave the house, the place where I grew up. Yeah, actually, this isn't the first time I've been 'thrown out' a few years ago. When I was around 4-5 years old, my parents divorced. Because there was no harmony, from the start, it was an arranged marriage, but after 7 years of marriage, we were blessed with 4 children. Erlang (7), Keorlo (6), Jerms (4), Louna (4, me) Yep, I am indeed the only child, a girl, and it's a twin. Actually, the extended family of both my parents doesn't mind whether she is a boy or a girl, but unfortunately. When I was growing up, it was seen that Louna and I grew up slowly, far away from my siblings who unfortunately were much more developed and basically both of my families are pure blood, yes they are both descendants of doctors, etc., basically they are really high achievers. And I, from the beginning, also tarnished the good name of both of my families, even when it came to child custody, only 3 other children fought over it, and my father won, and my mother got me. I was taken abroad after that and my mother immediately remarried to a foreigner, and she had children of her own. And I didn't have much fun for 1 year there and finally I ended up in front of the door of my grandfather's big house, where my grandfather, grandmother, father, and other siblings were there. At that time I couldn't remember, what 5 year old would remember what happened, but the image was still there, the feeling of dislike, and that was that. Even so, I grew up in that house again, my father had remarried to a younger person from this marriage who gave birth to Frano, he was honestly mature and critical, even crazy, he was really crazy, it seemed like he knew better than me. Vieena also has an inherited child, honestly, even though she's a stepdaughter, she's really proud when there's a family gathering. It's different from me who eats and eats bad things, insults, I'm too drunk to live in that house, but for some reason I think, it's okay if I can still smile as long as I can still have a roof for shelter, even though I have lots of half-siblings and half-siblings, but no one is ever close, even though I try to get close, they keep their distance and He doesn't want to come close to me, he says he's afraid of getting infected, what am I infecting you with?

Well, basically I ended up on the side of the road, there was no one to take an oath with, I just took myself. It's true that when I was at the graduation ceremony, I was immediately told not to come back, so I did.

"Dad, please, if I get out of here, where should I go, Dad?"

I've been kneeling in front of his room, his work room in this house. Even though my father is a doctor, he often meets etc like that.

"Dad, please, I don't have a roof other than here..."

"I promise I will be more diligent in helping with everything, sir, can I stay here until I graduate from high school? I still want to go to school, I- I- I..."

I grabbed my own hand, you idiot. Why do I have to stutter, so I looked down for a moment and smiled again. I smile normally.

"Sorry, my request is selfish. Okay, it's okay, after all it's Papa's decision, and everyone's... thank you Papa, for raising me until I'm here now, sorry for bothering."