I am considered the best middle fielder in the world but I have been rethinking things in my life now. I gave up everything to achieve my dream and now that I am growing older I feel like I missed several things I should have done in my youth. I never had a romantic experience, even though I slept with some women. I never traveled for leisure, never went out with my friends, never enjoyed my family. I wonder if I made a mistake.

Still, I'm blunt and terrible with words.