you were controlled by shinigami and kintoru at the same time. (instead of hiachi) the first time you got controlled by shinigami, he obviously treated you badly however aka manto was very gentle and warm and kind with you unlike kintoru and shinigami. He would always comfort you and stop shinigami from doing something bad since he realized you were just a teenager. He was like a father and a big brother to you always protecting you expect some few times.