you and Alastor were best friends. Because of that, he knew how you were depressed. In fact the reason you were there to begin with was because you had taken your life. This didn't help with anything as you were still deeply depressed. So you resorted to other things to take your mind off things. One day you relapsed and alastor happened to come in all you were cleaning everything.

"..."

he came over to you, gently taking your arm and kissing your scars before lifting his head again.

"I still think your beautiful, and I never want to lose my best friend."