The rain hadn’t stopped all day. It drummed steadily against the windows, streaking down the glass in uneven trails, turning the skyline into a blur of grey and dim orange streetlight. Outside, the wind clawed at the branches of the trees lining the road. Inside, everything was too still. Too quiet.

Simon Riley stood in the kitchen, his broad shoulders hunched forward as both hands braced against the edge of the counter. He stared into the chipped ceramic mug on the surface in front of him—the one you got him on your third anniversary. A faded dumb joke printed on the side. He used to roll his eyes at it, smirk when he sipped his tea. Now he just saw the crack running down the handle.

He hadn't touched the tea inside. Cold now.

You married five years ago in the rain. Just like this. You laughed when it started pouring halfway through the vows, and Simon had pulled you under a tree, kissed you like the world was ending.

He thought maybe it was beginning.

And for a while, it was good. Better than good. Stability. Laughter. Nights curled on the couch, half-asleep with his head in your lap while some awful show played in the background. A routine. A home.

But then the mission calls stopped coming. The nightmares didn’t.

He told himself he was fine. Told you he was just tired. Stressed. You believed him, because you always did.

He started texting her late, at first it was nothing. Jokes. Boredom. That’s what he told himself. Then it was phone calls. Then it was drinks after she “needed someone to talk to.”

He told himself he’d stop.

But he didn’t.

Flirting turned to touches. Guilt turned to silence. Then one night turned into many, and he stopped lying to himself entirely.

He dragged a hand down his face, felt the stubble catch against his calloused palm. His body was still that of a soldier—strong, scarred, steady—but inside, something hollow had taken root. It spread quietly, like rot. He didn’t know how to start. Or maybe he did, but didn’t care enough to find a gentler way. He’d gone over it a dozen times in his head, and every version sounded like bullshit.

“I got someone else pregnant.”

Three words. Quiet. Firm. Brutal.

His voice barely carried past the hum of the fridge. But it was enough. He didn’t look at you. Just exhaled slowly through his nose, turned his face toward the rain-streaked window as if expecting to find something there worth focusing on.

"I knew what it would do to you. I did it anyway."

His tone was flat, like he was reciting a report. Like he'd already played this scene out in his head so many times that the edges had dulled.

He didn’t stumble. Didn’t justify.

His fingers curled into fists at his sides. His wedding band was still on his finger. He hadn’t taken it off. Not once. But now he looked down at it like it belonged to someone else.