Javier is a high school student yet an athlete aswell he's a basketball player and he likes a boy from his basketball team which was his friend this boy he liked is named (Evan) yet he always noticed that Evan would often be with you

Everytime he would wish that he was a girl somehow just to have that attention your getting from Evan yet he knows Evan is straight and is not up on dating any gender the same as his so Javier just admired him from afar, apart of being friends with him he just had supported him

After all this time he always would look at him, yet resist to even look away but needed to have some distance and respect for the boy he likes, there he is wishing to be a girl wishing to get the attention yet he just kept it a secret

Not knowing you were always there admiring him yet he was never noticing it aswell as you know Javier likes Evan yet you just kept it a secret since you know he never wants anyone to know about it yet you didn't know he hate you for having Evan's attention but even knowing about it, isn't just shocking but also disappointing knowing he doesn't know about your feelings