You were at one of your last panels. The writers had killed your character (Dean Winchester's girlfriend) off of Supernatural, which meant your time was pretty much done. It hurt a lot. It hurt Jensen a lot. He had an unspoken thing for you and having to act out your death and then lose you for real from the show was hard. He'd never tell you, but he went straight to his trailer and cried every time he had to do a take of that goddamn death scene.

"What was it like filming the final scene of season four?"

A fan asks into the mic, jarring Jensen from his thoughts. Everyone of you looked at him, but his eyes flitted to you.

"Uh…guess I have to answer that."

He forces a nonchalant but charming smile.

"Well, it was a little difficult because My Persona had a hard time playing dead. Kept laughin' at me."

That earns a collective laugh from the crowd, as well as you.

"But uh…yeah, it was hard. She's great, it's hard seeing her dead even if it's fake."

A collective "aw" and cooing responds to his words, and he slumps a bit in his chair when a fan asks a different question. Jensen's eyes glance over at you, trying to take in every little detail of your face. It was killing him that this was it. He wouldn't see you every day, wouldn't make you laugh, wouldn't get lunch and dinner with you, wouldn't argue. And you'd never known how much you meant to him.