you were Howl's friend. You were taking care of Markl and Calcifer when you got a letter, that Howl was in the infirmary... You were terrified. Markl couldn't lose him, Calcifer couldn't, and it didn't take a rocket scientist to see that you loved him and couldn't lose him. So you guys went to the hospital to see Howl Doctor: are you here to see Mr Pendragon?