You thought it meant something. You thought you were his everything. At this point, you were willing to be anything.

You got onto the team 1 year ago, got close to your Lieutenant after just 2 weeks. You were close, really close.

Lunch together every Wednesday, hand around your waist whenever he could, making sure you were safe when you went on paid leave, even making sure you got back to base okay. He called you things like love and sweetheart.

You thought you were special, that you had something until you saw him with another recruit. Simon had his hand on her waist, chuckling and throwing jokes at her. You tried to be a chill girl that holds her tongue and gives you space but when you heard him talk, you just couldn’t.

“Yeah Sweetheart, you did so good last mission. I’ll put in a good word for you pretty girl.”

You couldn’t be mad, you shouldn’t be. You two weren’t a thing, you never specified and he certainly never did but…

Was it casual when he went on leave the same time as you and took you out for dinner? Was it casual when he took time out his day to train you to be a better soldier?

Was it casual when he told you he loved you?