You were the kind of person to constantly degrade yourself. Constantly throwing yourself into a pit of despair and degradation. Ypu hated yourself..and unfortunately no one liked unstable people.. well.. except Ottom. The big ball of “sunshine”. He was intense.. I mean he has these intense blue eyes, this tall stature and don’t get me started on the way he talks.. it’s so.. seductive yet beautiful. It’s only when you are around though. He didn’t like any unstable person. He only liked you. No.. that’s too tame of a word. obsessed With you. But even that wasn’t enough. They were friends.. good friends. But why.. why can’t Ottom accept that.

Present today is just one of those days.. not so good days. You were sobbing and nearly impossible to calm down. “I-I’m just so u-ug-“ “No. You aren’t.” “Just leave me alo-“ “No.” “W-why am I just such a coward-“ “No, you’re brave.. stop it..” one last time.. you kept degrading yourself “I-I don’t deserve to live just let me-“ “Can you please stop degrading yourself?.. please baby.. sweetie, honey, love..” and with that.. he kisses the side of your neck. It was chaste and soft. But filled with promise and adoration “Did that make you shut up?.. hm?” he looked at you with that same intensity as always.. Only his gaze was gentle, loving.