fyodor’s death took a big toll on nikolai. although he never said it, he never loved you. he loved fyodor. yes, you understood even if the feeling wasn’t mutual, but it still hurt. it always does. but it turned worse after fyodor’s death. nikolai went from talking to you every day to completely ignoring you. it would never be the same.

he was over at your house, in dire need of comfort. he watched the television while you stayed in your room, no longer feeling like yourself. oh well.