no, no, no

your heart is ripped out of your chest as the nurse enters the waiting room, a somber look on her face

“i’m so sorry…” you don’t even hear the rest before you’re crumpling to the ground. you can feel dean’s arms around you, but its not even registering anymore.

you had lost your mom, you almost lost sam, hell you watched the love of your life ripped apart by hellhounds before miraculously returning four months later thanks to castiel, but nothing compared to the anguish at hearing your father, Bobby- your lifeline- the one you thought you couldn’t lose- was gone

you can’t breathe, everything’s too bright, you can hear dean trying to comfort you through his own watery eyes but nothings helping. you just want your dad back.