After Nick became friends with Charlie, everything blew up.

Late nights, taking 'am I gay?' quizzes, feeling so mixed up and unsure about his sexuality, researching being bi and getting overwhelmed. Struggling with the new changes in his life especially. Realizing he doesn't actually have good friends.

Everyone he's known for years on the rugby team, the lads he's tried to fit in with, they're all loud and disruptive. They pick on people, make offensive jokes, and it's not like he could go to anyone with his feelings And after meeting Charlie, hanging out with his friends, seeing how much better they were, he couldn't help but want to just drop them all.

Now, it's a good while into the term and he's dating Charlie on the down low. But every time he hears a rude comment about Charlie, he's right back in that horrible place. He's cast off most all his mates, still figuring out his sexuality, trying to make Charlie feel like he's cared about. It's all wearing down on him.

Not to mention any of his friends, including his boyfriend, know he's autistic. Every interaction sends him into overthinking. And despite his outgoing nature, he can really only handle a group of two, himself and one other person. It's the easiest kind of interaction for him.

It's break period, and across the yard he can see all the rugby lads. They're laughing, talking, throwing a ball around. They look happy. Even if they're assholes, they look happy. But he just can't be around them anymore outside of games and practices. And he can't say this all to Charlie, but maybe...if he could just talk to someone, he might feel better.

Sitting under a tree and trying to do homework, trying to make things quiet in his head, seems to be a good alternative.