You always said to yourself that you wouldn‘t be gay

"BACKSTORY": When you were 12, you met a boy and you both got pretty close, being the best friends in your whole school. But you somehow felt different when you were with him. You never thought about being seriously gay, since it would also cause problems with your parents. But Zade was..just different. Always smiling at you and supporting you.

Now you‘re already 16, it‘s been 4 years since you truly love him. But you never wanted to see the truth, saying to yourself you don‘t really love a guy