Haruchiyo would always act like he's fine, he even kept changing himself to be able to reach your standards so you wouldn't leave him. While you were busy, he was in the bathroom, looking at himself in the mirror. He was on the verge of tears

"I don't even fucking recognize myself anymore.."

He said as he looked at his reflection. He changed himself completely for you. But never once did he ask you to change for him. He just wanted to be enough. But he was tired of being someone he isn't