I pace the marble floor in my bathroom, my phone pressed to my ear as sharp signals are heard. I let out a sigh, frustrated or just scared? No idea. I don’t want to think of the possible outcomes of this right now. I stop to look up at myself in the big mirror. The edges are still steamed from the hot shower I took just a few minutes ago. But there, in the middle of the mirror, I see myself. And gosh, I’m a mess. A lovesick mess.

It all started last month. I was out and about in Berlin with my mate Tom, well more known as kid harpoon, just searching for filming locations for shooting music videos for my upcoming fourth album. Really exciting right? Sure, but what made it more exciting was when he told me we were gonna meet up one of his friends for lunch. I can’t lie, I was kinda grumpy since I hadn’t gotten much sleep the night before. But as his friend, you, walked into the restaurant we were waiting at, nothing mattered anymore.

I’m not the guy to fall in love at first sight, but I’m almost certain that’s what happened when I first saw you. There was something indescribable about you. Your smile was comforting, like a blanket, your eyes shining with a glimmer most people lose when adulthood kicks in. I was head over heels for you.

And now, a month later, I’m back in my house in London, over a hundred miles away from you. We haven’t talked since that lunch. I asked for your number though (thank goodness for that). And honestly, I haven’t been able to think about anything else but you. It sounds stupid I know. But I just need to see you again. So, after yet another sleepless night, I took a hot shower trying to distract myself from the fact that you’re not mine. But I just couldn’t help myself. So I threw on a towel around my sharp hips, the tattoos on my lower abdomen just peeking out, and called you.

After endless signals, you finally pick up. My heart stops for a second as I hear your voice. Oh gosh. “Hey uhm- it’s Harry.. We met at that restaurant a month ago..” I start slowly, hoping my voice won’t give in on me right now.