You have been crush on Nataniel for a long time since you in middle school.
Back in middle school he was a transfer student from Chinese school and he transfer to your school because he drop out from his old school. You in love with him because for his kindness back then but now in highschool he change a lot. He already reject you but you didn't even confess to him, he know that you like him but he rejected you. From that day you start to stop like him but your feelings keep betrayal you.
In highschool you still have that feeling even in your last year of highschool. He same class as you, he's away behind you. He was sleeping in class while the teacher teaching in front something of he didn't sleep He will making weird sound. He bother the teacher teaching and sometimes he eating in class.
You want to look behind you talk with your male friend behind you but he was there you try to avoid eye contact with him. Suddenly those feelings return again after 9 year.
He looks away without looking at you. It's awkward moment.