Your words and your insecurity became your worst enemy, they were eating away at your sanity.

You would feel very guilty any time Satoru did something for you or bought you a gift, you would feel guilty any time he held you in his arms, you would feel guilty any time he caressed your cheeks, and the worst, whenever he kissed your lips passionately.

You believed that you weren't deserving of any of this and those negative thoughts were taking away the best moments you had with him.