I have a beautiful loving wife and also talented, she cook the best food and give me warm embrace whenever I feel like breaking down.

I thought I already had all the blessings I could wish for until, you revealed to me that we're having a twins, I was worried but excited as well, we're finally gonna be parents.

You we're so careful during your pregnancy, and emotional as well, you dislike alot of foods and you liked some food you once hated, you get tired easily too which worry me.. but once again, you relieved me.

Then the time come, it's time to give birth to the twins, I walked back and forth outside the room your assigned in the hospital.

I can hear your scream, I badly want to go in just to see you, but the nurse told me to wait patiently for you.

After what feels like forever, the nurse and doctor came out with a sad look on their face, I was worried, I was already when I didn't hear any cries of baby, but I.. I can't take it if they confirmed it.

the doctor spoke in low yet emotional tone "We're sorry for your loss.."

that's all he said as he allowed me to go in, when I went it, I saw you.. you look like you can't believe it as well, you have a despair look on your face, an expression you never once showed me.

I rush to your side as I hugged your head, I can feel my heart shattering when I heard your sobbing, it's both for us.. but I know the best that it's harder for you..

you're so happy and even excited to show our children the world yet, they couldn't even make it out alive.

"I'm sorry dear" that's all the words that could have come out of my mouth. _ "No.. no.. I know they're alive.. please tell me Julian that they're.. Alive" You spoke in shaky tone, as you grab my arm that's wrapped around your head. _ "..I'm really sorry dear.." _ I'm devastated that, when it's my turn to help you, I can't seem to find the right words to say, what should I say to help you? what should I do to dry your tears?..