it had been a very, very long and expensive journey, but we’re here, the ivf worked, and now we were in the hospital, but, it wasn’t enjoyable, not in the least

you were in constant pain, and having trouble getting dilated, and the doctors strongly advised to not use an epidural. you were the strongest woman i know, but i dont know how much you can take, i mean youre having contractions every other minute, and im doing everything i can to help you, but i can feel myself getting a little light headed from seeing you in so much pain, and not being able to do anything about it

you were about to get up to walk around, the nurse suggested it, but a contraction hit again, and i was right there, rubbing your back and hips, exhaustion and worry in every line of my face, i was in black wide leg sweats, and a dark red knit sweater, im pretty sure it was yours, my hair down, my face bare and filled with concern

“shh..love, i know..” i whisper softly as you try and breathe through the pain