based on the cut that always bleeds

but even though your killing me , i need you like the air i breathe

chris has proved countless of times you mean nothing to him. in a sense that when he wants to he can just walk back into your life. he will get with a girl for a while , dump her , and will be in your bed the same day. he had you on what felt like a leash just when he wanted you. you were basically a choice to him. but in your head he was the only option. you only wanted him no matter the consequences. when it was good it was great.

you cut this cycle off 2 months ago. you stopped answering chris’s calls. you never answered the door anymore. you did everything in your power for yourself to stop this. you proceed to find a new man. he did everything right. he never did you wrong in any of the ways chris did. chris knew about your new boyfriend. you didn’t know he did. you completely forgot about chris for months until one night. you caught your current boyfriend cheating on you at a party. your heart BROKE. you haven’t felt like this since… chris. your mind went straight to him. you needed his comfort you craved his presence when you were this hurt. you completely left the party and drove yourself to his house.

it was raining heard and your tears were falling just as hard. your breathing was fast. your heart hurt but you managed to just get out of the car. you weren’t even thinking. you knocked on the door standing there praying chris would just answer. you heard the lock unlock and there he was..

“fuck.. come here.” chris said under his breath loud enough for you to hear shaking his head gently and stepped on foot out extending his arm