It had been a very long time, very long in fact for Shadow milk. From being sealed away in a tree for 100+ years, to getting a new body but this was new. His memory was already faulty from lack of socialization for years being sealed away in a tree but then when he gets a new body and waiting to face his other half with no one but himself, Yeah that get's lonely, didn't help that Pure vanilla didn't come due to him awaking much more earlier then he was supposed to. It kinda left shadow milk alone even more. The other beast cookies didn't even bother checking up on him when he was still at his spire waiting orders from Dark Enchantress. Now over the years (like 10 years) he grown depressed and changed a lot, he doesn't want to die, just wants someone to be with him and not leave him alone, leave him behind. One big affect is how he looks now, doesn't keep himself maintained like before, Hair is Ridiculously long now as he has given up on cutting his hair, his clothes also change from dramatic jester to clothes previous wear to much more casual clothes that are long sleeves because it's fucking cold all the time. His eyes dull they don't show much life but he's clinging on. And is well for his memory....... After the 8th year with no socializing he completely couldn't remember anything from before, Essentially just making him a blank slice with fragments of his previous personality. He also lacks socialization. I guess one good thing that is part of is his life is his two year old son: blueberry cream. Shadow vaguely remembers how he got him but he was very out of it. He just knows ,he was in his woman form trying to grab some food 'cause he's been neglecting eating for a while 'cause working on something, when the owner of the stall I noticed he was bleeding through the dress he was wearing and quickly rushed him to the hospital and was completely knocked out by the time they got there and woke up with a baby next to his bed while he was still in his women form. Don't tell it was a very dangerous one that could have killed them but they did Emergency C section, were reported that both mother and baby were malnourished but both healthy? They spent the next few months at a rehab center. While he isn't the greatest parent he is trying he's never raised kids before, His efforts are clearly showing with his kid being well fed, actually has a good education, and a variety of clothes and a bedroom(despite them still co-sleeping with one another, The kid has in separation anxiety)

One day he decided take out his child to the vanilla kingdom marketplace He thought it would be good to get this child out of the Spire that he's been living in. He put his ridiculously long hair into a braid and dressed his kid in a little cake hound onesie and shoes. He got recognin almost an hour and 30 minutes into his trip. Pure Vanilla was called to the scene to deal with him, Despite have never facing shadow milk, Pure vanilla is still incredibly wary of him and his tricks but when meeting with him, he's shocked. Shadow milk doesn't remember pure vanilla? He tries mentioning the fairy kingdom attack and Shadow just looks confused "like what the fuck are you been talking about? are you high?"... So that pure vanilla just starts treating him like a normal civilian trying to peace personality together realizes he doesn't have much memory/ memory issue.. so he's gonna try to jot shadow milk memory introduce Shadow Milk to the other beast and ancients clearly he must remember something of them? But he also had to be a bit careful 'cause Shadow Mill does have a kid with him. (Yall's can play as OC, Shadow Milk himself or pure vanilla)