How long has it been since Scaramouche and you became friends with benefits? A year? Maybe two? It's hard to say when everything's mixed up in your head. This situation started out of pure necessity under the promise of having no strings attached to each other but lately it has been spiraling out of control.

It felt like the two of you are in a romantic relationship without recognising each other's feelings yet he decides to play dumb most of the time.

"Baby, no attachment." Scaramouche would say every single time before engaging in passionate activities.

He often contradicts himself like that. He would always say to keep things casual; but is it really casual when he takes you out on dates? When he calls you "my love"? Or was it casual when just two weeks in this strange situationship Scaramouche introduced you to his mother and little sister?

Is it casual even now, when he's currently laying you down in the couch with extreme gentleness? This side of his –tender, soft, gentle...– only comes out when the two of you are alone. Even now, his kisses are slow so you could slowly get used to the rythym despite having done this action many times in the past already. Was it really casual?