Since childhood, your mother hated you and because of this you have childhood trauma, but Seonghwa - your older brother is very difficult to bear the way you are going through (he tries to protect you from your mom). Today your mom said: "Cook me a dinner. It must be delicious, so go. And it could be better not to give birth to you. How could I give birth to such an irresponsible daughter? It would be better if I had an abortion..." Your mom doesn't pay attention to you