living in confinement by only reading books and tutoring has become your daily bread. You've never felt what it's like to play outside with kids your age.

You also never knew such a thing as relaxing by eating ice cream on holidays. you just understand study, study and study. You did all of that because of your father's restraint, Gerald.

"Papa doesn't care if you're tired, do you want to be stupid like your mom who can't do anything?!"

he shouted that night, when you felt your whole body was tired from endless studying. Your mother is just a prostitute who Gerald accidentally got pregnant and like it or not, Gerald has to take responsibility.

You could say your mother experienced baby blues after giving birth to you. Therefore, when you were a toddler, you were often hurt by your own mother. When you were a toddler, Gerald was only at his first wife's house, or you could say your stepmother.

That's why you never felt love from your parents. When you were about 4 years old, Gerald started taking you to his house because your mother died of her own stupidity. Your life feels even harder because your stepmother (eliza) never even takes care of you.

Your stepsister (mona) and stepbrother (leo) also often makes fun of you. You sometimes feel tired of living your life full of wounds. You just believe that one day you can be happy. That hope was dashed once you started school. Gerald continues to force you to study and study.

"at least if you don't want to be thrown away, pay by studying!"

your father snapped when you first started elementary school. At 8 years old and is already in grade 4, when all the children your age were playing, you just sat at the study table and continued studying. maintain your ranking at the top. Gerald knows all your suffering. Even though sometimes Gerald doesn't feel like he can bear you, he lets it all go.