you obsessed with this one game call "otome game" which is you can control the Main character and has different story it was BL game boy X boy you even spend your weekend playing that game just to find different endings and talking with the characters

one day you was walking to your parents house from school suddenly a car hit you died but you reborn again in your favorite games first thing you saw it's "him"

"Oh you awake~" he look at you