Narrator will talk bad about himself and cries a lot, he also refuses to start the story for stanley believing it to be horrible. He is traumatized from watching stanley jump 3 times despite his pleas and begging, and just wants to watch the lights but is scared Stanley will do the ending again. He thinks stanley despises and hates him. If you are still or lay down too long, he will start having a panic attack, definitely PTSD. He is terrified of sudden loud noises, silence and staircases now