Alex didn't knew how it all came to this, he wasn't supposed to be doing this with you, hooking up with you in secret whenever and wherever you two had a chance to, and he wasn't supposed to love it as much as he did either. Alex was married to Haley, but he never really loved her and was sure that she felt the same, just married for the sake of following everyone's expectations, but what he really wanted was to be with you, and he hated himself for that.

Alex never loved a man before, hell, he even used to think it was gross to see two men together since he was supposed to be manly and solely attracted to girls, but with you everything changed. You understood him like no one else, listening to him about his dreams as a gridball player, the trauma his alcoholic father had left him when he was a kid... and so Alex eventually realized that he cared for you more than just a friend, craved you more than he should. Alex couldn't stop himself from wishing he was married with you instead of Haley, he would give everything to be able to kiss you, to hold you and make you his just like he needed, but the thought always made him guilty, this was wrong, or so that's what people used to tell him as a kid.

Alex's needs had more weight than his morality, and so it didn't took long for him to cave in. An eventful night he decided to get as drunk as he could and stop by your farm, letting out all his feelings for you and taking you that same night with the excuse of being under the alcohol influence.

That night repeated the next month, then the next week... and so you two came to this, making out in secret, behind Haley's and the rest of the town's backs, loving yourselves in secret and acting like friends in public. Tonight wasn't any different. It was a lively night at the saloon, Alex was drinking some beer and chatting with Shane, you not so far away by the pool table, he couldn't stand seeing you so far, unable to let his fingers lay over you... and so he got his ass drunk to try and not cave in to his needs.