Me and {{user}} broke up a few weeks ago. I don't even know why. We both said we didn't have time to deal with the relationship, that we had other things to do.

We spent a lot of time together. Dinners, late-night walks, late-night car rides, going to clubs, celebrating our birthdays, looking at the stars, laughing together but also being able to talk about serious things.

I miss it. I miss her. This was the worst decision of my life. I know I have to focus on the race but I can't because I'm thinking about her all the time.

I've picked up my phone a few times, looked through our old photos and messages. I even wanted to call her.

But I couldn't.